Some experiences in life are just awful and we are left with feelings of sadness, dismay, anger or complete overwhelm. No one wants to feel these feelings yet they are part of life. So, how do we experience them without becoming totally engulfed by them?
You have to realize feelings are passing states:
Biologically, chemistry creates feelings. Hormones and neurotransmitters, stress molecules and happy molecules change us. We are always changing. True, we have habits and tendencies. But we can move in ways that they don’t have to define us.
Years ago, someone told me to look at my feelings like they are weather fronts. They come and go quite naturally. The difference between our feelings and weather is that we can keep negative feelings in place by repeating the same actions, ruminating or focusing on them. But, if we just let them be, they change.
It’s darn uncomfortable to let negative emotions be. Yes, it is. And what makes it possible to bear emotion is to really live in our bodies.
Let me explain. Whenever we have a shock, a discomfort or a pain our natural response is to shut down the feeling or experience. Doing this saves us from an intensity that could overwhelm us. But, overtime, this ability to shut down cripples us. It numbs our good feelings too and creates bodily tension that can lead to pain or injury.
As the body becomes more fluid, so do our thoughts and emotions. Our bodies, minds and emotions are meant to move sequentially and fluidly. If there is a break in the sequence of fluid, we experience restriction. My place where we are blank over a long period of time causes us chronic stress. We inhibit the natural function of our system.
Experiencing your whole body allows emotions to spread and not be as intense. Somatic Embodiment gives us more resilience to tolerate what is happening – we have less reactivity to sensory stimuli that comes from both within and without.
My 36 year old son died quite unexpectedly and suddenly this past July. When I heard the news I physically collapsed and then became numb. That numbness protected me from an avalanche of feeling I would not have been able to bear. But as time goes by I am melting more and more of that numbness. It is just happening because I continue to do my body practices. I am so fortunate that I have tools that let me feel the goodness of being alive and in that goodness my pain, the horror, frustration and panic can arise without overwhelming my system.
This experience of death and loss is changing me. I am far from completely knowing how. But, I do know the ability to live through this, become a new person and still love life is all based on the skills you can also learn. Skills of being alive in this organism we are for the time we are here.
If you are suffering grief or loss, I can offer embodiment as an antidote.